Not So Happy 18th!!

What starts with 8 and rhymes with hating? Anyone?? *rme.

Fine, iWould just come out with it. Eighteen! Yep, iAm finally legal. Yay!!!

Okay in truth, iAm not that excited about it. In fact, iAm not even slightly psyched about it. Doesn’t necessarily make me abnormal. Right?

*Sigh*

Today is so gonna be horrid. iCan feel it deep in my very bones.

iKnow that sounds kinda crazy. There’s no reason for me to be this way and every reason for me to be happy, but… But alas, here iAm at 2:30 in the morning, awake and sad.

iHave got  a lot of mixed up emotions right now. iJust wanna cry and get it all out. But who cries on their birthday?
iLay in bed   thinking, and pretty soon iWould run out of things to think about. iCannot understand where all these has come from. Lets just say, iAm all kinds of fucked up at the moment.

It’s funny how iDon’t feel any different from how iWas yesterday. iMean, isn’t there supposed to be a magical whoosh to zap me into adulthood. Who made 18 so special anyways?!?!

So in my feeble attempt to break out… iHave decided to make this post.

Yay!

It’s a new age. iThink iMight have to change my ways. This means new thoughts, new ideas, new everything. Sadly iHavent got any ideas. Or do I ?

There’s a lot of stuff iWish iCould do. The things iDo normally just aren’t sufficient. iNeed more excitement in my life. iGet so pissed when iAm bored… It doesn’t make sense, so much good stuff happening in the world, why am iNot involved?!

Do you know what woulda made my “18th” [notice the quote] birthday special??

If iSpent it with my friends. Or maybe even someone from the testicle specie. Any dude would be great. Throw me a stud if you will. And yes, it is that deep.

Anyways…iAm not saying iDon’t have great friends here [don’t get me wrong]… but iWould rather spend it with people iHave known for years… Like people who know me inside out. You can’t possibly fathom how hard it is for me to tune down my awesomeness or sensor myself every time iOpen my mouth to speak. They’re cramping my style yo!

So in all fairness… iHave composed a list of things iCould be doing if iWere at home.

99 And 1 Things iCould Be Doing If iWere At Home.

*Staying up late talking to a bunch of people that Genuinely LOVEE me.

*Getting drunk in my underwear with a fag in my mouth [very high possibility]

*Refreshing my facebook wall every 5 mins to see how many birthday wishes iGet. Don’t be fooled; we are not friends.

*Chilling someplace with my friends, having fun and getting as inebriated as humanly possible.

*Prolly even setting p *giggle*

iCould do ith a P right now. Kay's lonely :(. iHaven't spoken to this fellow that iAm comepletely and totally infatuated with in over a month. And, of course, he doesn't give a damn.

But alas, iAm stuck in this hell-hole with these attention-seeking psychopaths.

Oh GOD. Oh GOOOOD. iCannot stand them. They try too Fxcking hard! iMean, it's just too much. iCan't with them. iJust. Cannot.

Sometimes iAM literally speechless at the idiocy of these people.

There’s nothing more pathetic than seeing a guy, who’s probably been complimented about his Good Looks just Once! Trying to play Chuck Bass on every living cunt in a skirt.

iHave got several of these in my school. They think they’re awesome mini-gods or something. iHave got a bit of advice for them. Get laid.

And then one of these stupid dickheads tried to get it with me ? Um. Fuck you.

There’s no cuss word that can rightly describe how much these fools disgust me.

Crap. What was iTalking about again? Oh yeah.

The only good part about this whole gut-wrenching-heart-shattering-mind-fucking-thing is the fact that iCan do stuff iUsed to do… Only legally now

Happy 18th birthday to me. So let it be knowst to all… I, Kay Tannah, being of sound body and mind, hereby promise to fake a smile all day and have as much fun as iCan. Wish me luck

P.s iAm in school

*Caramel Kisses*

Beautiful Lies

Readers of this blog.

iHave been… occupied. iAm sorry iHaven’t blogged. Y’all must’ve been frantic. *giggle* *curtsey*

So how have you been? Cause iHave been bloody horrible.

iSaid iWasn’t gonna rant about my emotional nonsense here again. But iWant to express myself. No. iNeed to express myself. You can’t imagine how gut-wrenching it is to keep deep emotions to myself.

But you love it when iSpill, don’t you? ;)

AnyHOO

iHave a question for you. When you meet someone and the person is so cool. Like frigid. And you guys talk 24/7 nonstop. Then one day, he says he likes you. And then, the most mind-numbling-fuckup-y of all; he’s in a relationship. You’re immediately on red alert right?

Let me get straight to the point.

This summer iFell in love again. Not willingly, but it happened… And as usual,  iGot my heart broken.

Thing is, he was already taken. Even though the relationship clearly sucked. iPlayed the good friend, and he ended up falling for my awesomeness. iKid, iKid.

iKnow iShouldn’t be doing these things but trust me, iFought hard against it. We all fuck up sometimes… The heart does what the heart wants.

The thing that annoyed me the most were the promises. What was the point of making all those promises? Knowing they were all meaningless fantasies. iWarned you but you wouldn’t listen. iWas just too gullible to believe it myself.

Distance is such a fucking bitch.

iKnew iHad lost you even before it happened. iJust didn’t think you’d go back to her. Anyone but her.

And now you have left me bloody and sore. Well, Fxck iLook like? iCan handle some pain but I’m not Superman.

The only thing that made it easier was your apology. No one’s ever apologized for breaking me. Then iHeard what you said and got mad again.

Now I’m lying down thinking of you with a few questions on my mind.

Was it easy leaving me? Like iWas nothing? Like we were nothing?

Are you happier with her?

Do you still think about me?

iKnow it shouldn't bother me, but it does. iShouldn't care, but iDo. iShould hate you, but iDon't.

iThought we had something real, iThought we had something. iDont know why iFooled myself.

Everything reminds me of you now. Oh my gosh. There’s this guy iKeep staring at cause he smiles just like you. And your scent... Lawd! iRemember it so well.

Well enough of this, iCannot allow myself think of you anymore. iAm gonna remember us like we were just casual. Nothing deep.

And  when people ask me what happened, I’m gonna lie until it becomes the truth. I’m gonna say we were just friends until iBelieve it myself.

iKnow this makes me a pussy. You’re probably thinking, “Man up Kay! Use your testicles!”… Or maybe you weren’t thinking that  x_x

But whatever. iCan’t be arsed *Kanye shrug*.

*Caramel Kisses*

The P-Madness

Dear Earthlings,


Its been much too long. And iSincerely apologize  for the length of my absense. Am afraid it has nothing to do with my busy state. iJust cannot blog anymore. It's safe to say iHave lost my blogging mojo.  If it makes you any feel better, my life has been uneventful thus far.


This shall be a short post. Nothing poetic. Like iSaid before, iCannot blog anymore. But due to demands by my little, yet noble followers, iShall post something.

Alrighty then *rubs palms*... Moving on to important topics.

The countdown has begun. Summer's almost here! Woohoo!! I'm tingling with excitement already. So what are your plans for this summer? Apparently everyone's extremely looking forward to this summer [emphasis on 'extremely']. People are even setting P's. To show how serious that is, there's even a blog taking a four week seminar on how to set your summer P... Its called SPS101 [Summer "P" Setting] lol. And yes, it is that deep.

In totality, everyone's expecting this summer to be epic. Oh what fun we shall have.

Strangely iHavn’t set mine yet… Maybe it’s cause I’m too busy trying to sort things out …Or cause I’m blindly waiting for a miracle to happen… #shrug.


Point is, thy legs and chests must be exposed! Sadly iHave nothing to show off :(  ...I am by no means perfect.
And iHave never claimed perfection. Life is not like the movies *sigh*But that would change one day, iAssure you.


The best part about this summer is... Drum roll please... PARTYING! Party Harday! iGet to party alot. without anyone getting on my case. And everyone's coming back home. Alotta hotties btw. Ohh iCould just imagine.

But for now, iHave got to concerntrate on my stupid exams *sigh*

On the bright side, iMade a new friend. No, not an imaginary one… A real one that has all the physical attributes. Do people still have imaginary friends?? iThought Facebook and Twitter had taken care of that. Oh! Ohh! Just remember a little girl I knew that… #Sigh Never mind.


*Btw, summer 'P' is just a slang for summer fling :)
Buenas noches people
*Caramel_kisses*

When Life Fucks You From Behind

Sometimes life gets pretty hard, we all complain;

But most of us don't know the true meaning of pain.

Some don't know what it feels to lose a friend;

A loved one is lost for everyone you gain.

We don’t know what hustle is till we’ve been there

Has life ever gotten so helpless it’s had to bear?

But you just hold on because you’re in fear.

Fear to lose what you love, what you have, what you suffer for;

Family, cause they were with you, even when you were poor.

Well here’s a story of true dedication:

Faith she’s called, Somalia was her nation

Three kids to feed, but no support.

Her husband did a good deed, and got caught

He was imprisoned for no legit reason.

He saved a young boy from a rebel attack

Pretty smooth yeah? But here comes the crack.

He was caught up with, in the heat of the sun

The rebels took no mercy, he watched the boy burn.

Then he was jailed with wounds on his body, deep in.

5 days he was pail, he died sleepless, thinking

Praying for his wife and children.

Almost ran crazy thinking rebels might have killed them.

No, they were safe, his prayers might have worked.

Or did they? The devil waited till the right time clocked.

Faith was taken to a refugee holding.

Life was better, food was scarce, but now they could sleep safe.

Until Faith got raped, what a cold thing.

To make matters worse, she got raped by her first son.

His baby brother made it his duty to take his bro to the grave.

Grieving and screaming, Faith needed help and she kept seeking.

It never came, her son bled to death with no aid from no one.

Now faith was left with 2 children, teenage years

She knew they were grown, she kept living in fear.

To her dismay her daughter slept with a general for their freedom.

They got it but karma struck.

He killed her knowing she’d leave him.

Faith was left with only 1 child, the brother killer

Déjà vu happened when he also tried to feel her

He stopped and looked at her and cried

He promised her a better life before she died

Faith was strong, she forgave her son.

After all she had been through; she didn’t want to lose another loved one.

He had his break, young gifted inventor

Billionaire bill gates had always been his mentor.

And as he promised, he gave his mother a better life,

Moved to the states and got a decent wife.

Faith was comfortable but still reminiscing;

All family members gone and friends still missing.

She kept strong saying she was gonna take life easy.

Too bad Faith, life isn’t always that breezy.

She had to learn in a bad manner.

Her sons’ plane crashed; there was no way to calm her.

Faith started taking drugs, she almost went mental.

But life is never free nor fair; our every breath is rental.

Faith couldn’t take it anymore, she was going crazy.

First her husband, her first son, her daughter and now her baby.

She thought for a while and made her decision.

Suicide became Faiths number one mission.

Thrust a blade through her heart, she bled to death.

She only uttered “why” with her final breath.

Sad story, Faith took her own life.

And there’s more to the story,

Her baby boy survived...

- HammarH

Hermoso Desastre...

NOTE.

If you're in any way familiar with me; once you're done reading it, please do not confront me about it. Or ask me for the full story. Cause iWould not hesitate to ignore you completely. And if you mock me, iFear iMight just lose it. 

This is something iWrote just for myself. It's something i'm extremely conscious about posting. It's a letter to my ex. iHad to think about it seriously. To post or not to post? “It’s a bit too emotional; it’ll make me seem like the weaker man.”

It’s about old unspoken truths. Something I've got to get out of my chest. Memories iWant to let go of. But some memories just stay no matter what.   

To that somebody:                                     

Remember all those things we wanted,

Now all our memories they’re haunted,

We were never meant to say goodbye.

                                – Kelly Clarkson (and a few twists)

We both liked each other deeply. [Unless you were pretending in which case you would be a complete douche!] You knew it, iKnew it, so what was the problem ? iTried to make it easier, but you kept fighting back like we were at war. 

With you iWas different. It’s like iWas someone else. A split personality? iCould always tug the treads connecting you to my fantasies. Actually, scratch that. You made my fantasies seem like cheap imaginations. It felt so surreal.

When it started, something in me changed completely, never to be reversed. iFound myself somewhere iNever thought i'd be. 

You were supposed to be perfect for me. But then you changed. And till now iHave no idea what went wrong.

You were the one thing iNever regretted. I’m the kinda person that would do something and feel guilty about it later. But with you it was never like that.

iKnew you were leaving. Our time was limited. iLived by my motto, “It’s better to have loved and lost, than not to have loved at all”. You hurt me badly but iDidn’t care. iAlways faked a smile and dealt with the side effects.

You knew you were hurting me and yet you’d give me a sad smile and keep hurting me. It pissed me off to know it also made you sad. So why did you keep doing it?

There iWas, ready for you. But you just kept pushing me away.

Then you gave me the lamest excuse ever, “You don’t want to fall too hard for me cause you’re afraid to lose me” So I’d smile and pretend like iBelieved you .

Truth is iWanted to, badly. But iJust couldn’t, no matter how hard iTried. iMean, FXCK iLOOK LIKE ?!

 iCraved to feel something for you. Love, Hate… A sick addiction. My own crazy infatuation.

It was quite sad actually but iCouldn’t help it… iWas obsessed, as crazy as it seems.

There are things iStill remember about you.  Things iCan’t seem to forget, like a virus hacked into my brain.

iWish there was a delete button in my mind so iCould get rid of the memories of you.

iCraved for one last time. But alas! You left without even saying goodbye. And yet you claimed iWas special. Your disappearance broke my heart. But it’s something I’ve learned to live with.

Now I’m stuck with “what if’s” and “if only”

If iHad one chance to do it all again, would I? Probably. What would iChange? Absolutely nothing. Would we make the same mistakes? iCouldn’t be bothered.

It’s crazy, it’s absurd, its madness, it foolishness, it’s even scary and yet deeply right. What other word is there?

iCould say iHate you, but them iWould be lying to myself. It was just another bad romance.

But still iWould never admit the worst. Not even to myself.

Al Final

*Well enough of this. Just because iMade a reference to 'doing it all over again' as though iStill have feelings for him, doesnt mean iActually do.  Those feelings are long gone. iMean looooong gone. Doesn't mean iDont remember how it felt. 

*Caramel_Kisses*

Pink - Perfect (Boyce Avenue acoustic cover)

 iJust saw this on someone's blog and iKnew iHad to have it. 

Omg! When iHeard this iWas like, Wow! And iDon't even know who he is.

 But his voice just gets me. Somehow iPrefer his version to pinks original one just cause of his voice... Its simple perfect.

AnyHOO

...Enjoy!

 

No Deseado :(

Dear Readers,

iHave tried and tried not to bore you with my sad heart affairs, but i'm afraid this is an emergency. You see, i've been feeling some heart burns lately called jealousy. How come you ask? Well it’s all thanks to Hendrixx.

Yeah... iKnow I’m supposed to be over him. But iDidn't even like him before, so what went wrong? The part that shocked me the most is the jealousy part. Cause iHardly get jealous. ..Or maybe it’s just envy. Either way it infuriates me.

So I’ve been obsessing over him and Kay’s not cool with that. Whats happened to me?

Lately my mind has gone hay-wire. I've been thinking of the possibilities. iMean iEven imagine a lot of erotic things going down between us. And I’m really imaginative so you can imagine how erotic they are.

If only I’d just say yes and get it over with. Well, FXCK ILOOK LIKE? My libido might be on the loose presently but I’m not that stupid.

iWish iCould write a poem about how iFeel. Sadly, I’m not even sure how iFeel. Okay, the truth is iUnbelievably suck at rhyming XD

So my question is, "Is it possible that iLike this young fellow? Is it okay for me to say iLike him now?"

But alas. even if the answer was yes, iMusn't let him know he makes me feel this way. For if he does he'll be at an advantage.

It's not that I give a damn what he thinks. For if he knows, it doesn’t change a thing. It hardly matters, at this point, for he doesn't give a damn. ):

Okay, iCan't really say he doesn't care since he doesn't know about how iFeel. But then again he's a neglecter and a bloody assHole. You won't believe the effontry iEndure everytime.

How did iFall for him anyways? Why do iAlways fall for the gorgeous assHoles? How is it possible that just seeing his face could cause my heart to skip a beat? And reading his messages causes my libido to do the Rumba?

If he asks me, I’d tell him the truth; just cause iMade a stupid promise. However, if he doesn’t, well too bad, cause there isn’t a chance iHave to spare.

This is one of the reasons why iHate being a girl. We are such sad creatures when we really like someone and the feeling isn’t mutual.

iThink iMight have to change my ways. No more liking boys just for fun.

AnyHOO

This just complicates things for me. Cause I’m pretty sure Mss Tee still likes him even if she claims she’s giving up. Don’t ask me how iKnow… iJust know.

And then there’s the fact that he’s never gonna like me back. Sigh. Let’s just say my life pretty much sucks at the moment.

My first decision was to go M.I.A for about a week. But then iThought, "Hey, wait a minute... iLike him not love him. Pfff" Love…  Bleh! How bothersome. Been there... Not quite ready for another round.

So now my decision is to stay away from him till I’m over it. Does that make any sense? iThink it does. Right. I’d probably be over it by Friday, then I’d be happy again :D.

So Dear Hendrixx… I’m sorry if you miss me. And iDo hope you miss me. Yeah right *rme*.  This is Kay saying goodbye till whenever.

Ah yes!

A sad ending and a possible new beginning …Or else I’m Doomed!

*Caramel kisses*

A Series Of Unfortunate Events

So iWasted the whole of today. 

How you ask me

Well you know yours truly is currently working on a book with Ms Tee. So iSpent the whole day working on a picture of how she should look.

But alas, iForgot shes supposed to have long curly hair. How smart is that. Like how could iHave forgotten that. iMade the freaking character. *Slapping face*. I'm gonna have to draw another picture. So now i'm pissed. 

iThink this ones really good though. And if you dont like it, you can just SUCK MY COCK! Cause iHad to freaking paint it twice. Its not my fault you have no talent... But dont feel bad about it ...a lot of people have no talent.

iMean do you know how annoying that was?  And iDidn't use any picture application. iUsed the normal fxcking paint on my laptop !

Just so you'd know how hard iWorked on it... iDid a collage on both pictures.

*Forgive my mood. I'm just pissed that iCant use it.

AnyHOO

Today really shouldn't be about me. Today should be dedicated to the people of Japan. 

Been watching the news and iSaw the whole earthquake and Tsunami that happened in Japan. Its funny how lately whenever iMistakenly switch to the news channel, its the most popular ones iCatch on. Coincidence? iThink not. Wow Kay, you're growing :)

 Anyways this disaster happens to be biggest one in their history. The 7th or 6th biggest in the history of the world. An 8.9 magnitude Easrthquake... I'm not even sure how big that is but iHear its really HUGE.

And this got me thinking.

Nigeria's really blessed... Like for real. So yeah, the economies bad. But thats nothing compared to countries facing natural disasters. We hardly have any, and the only one i've heard of is a Flood.

AnyHOO

All Kay is saying is... Pray for Japan... Seriously. I've said my prayers. Do yours.

Yum...

So i'm in the kitchen at the moment, slaving away so my brothers may have their fully nutritional, tasty looking spanking supper. Not telling you what it is *tongue out* :P.

And just so iWouldnt die of unbelievably depressing boredom and impatience,  iCarried my laptop with me. You see, not everybody has a BB. Some of us actually use regular PHONES, pay the usual required fee for CREDIT, browse on our LAPTOPS and send normal TEXT MESSAGES once in a while.

Don't be surprised if one day you see a skinny light skinned girl walking on the road browsing while holding her laptop. Its not cool but cause its original and it comes from me it counts as being awesome.

OK iWas kidding. iWouldn't be caught dead doing that. Well thats cause if iWas dead iWouldn't be doing it anyways. Pfff. 

If iSee anyone walking on the road like that iWouldn't hesitate to LAUGH OUT LOUD !

Sorry iReally do not have anything important to say today. So iLeave you with one thought just to spice up your imagination.

Imagine waking up one morning and you find yourself falling  from the sky with no parachute. It'll be a terrible el muerte. Why do people go skydiving anyways. What if your parachute doesn't work. Scary stuff.

Oh well. Hasta la vista el fiel

*Caramel_Kisses*

Mechanic Genius

Dear Readers,

Sadly today’s post isn’t that’s going to blow your brains out.

And frankly I’ve got nothing majorly interesting to blog about. Plus I’m tired of bitching about my health.

But alas, this is my blog. And iCan do anything iWant with it. Look whats you’ve gotten yourself into. Buahaha *evil grin*.

Back to blogging.

You know how people always say, “you don’t know what you’ve got until you’ve lost it.” Well I’m glad iHavn’t lost mine yet.

iGave myself this unreasonable but necessary task of charging my laptop for 13 hours straight without using it. Like what was iThinking.

Yes, iAm actually blogging about my laptop. Get over it.

AnyHOO

At the time iThought; Pfff *side eye* . No big deal. Challenge accepted ! I’d probably be sleeping for about 9 hours then I’d find something else to do. Probably watch t.v. Boy was iWrong.

You see, due to my unfortunate mislay of a BB… My laptop’s all I’ve got so far.  And alas, iHardly watch t.v [DSTV’s such a waste.]. I’d rather read a good book. And no, iAm not a nerd. But iDo like nerd glasses. Get my joke? Alright B)

It’s not just about the internet… The sexy black sleak body of my laptop happens to have a brilliant mechanical brain which contains half of my life’s work.

So basically, how a person hangs on to their BB is how iHang on to my laptop. It’s an addict.  

Moving on.

Let’s talk about me. Phew, for a second there iFelt neglected. :D

If you’re tired of me bitching about my health, you might as well go and hug a transformer right now.

So iFinally asked my dad what was going on about my health. The whole vomiting and stuff.

He says my systems just irritated by something. And that I’ve probably got ulcer. Like is that supposed to make me feel better. You should have seen the way he just said it casually like its nothing.

Hell no am iTelling Jade about it. Dammy can be comforting, but the first thing that’s going to come out of Jade’s mouth is, “iTold you so.” Well maybe. “Omg! Are you serious.” Then, “iTold you so.”

Option 2 is that it’s probably what I’m eating. Problem is, what I’m eating’s what I’ve always been eating. Nothing new. Heyy wait a minute. iJust started taking honey a lot cause of my cough… Hmmm

*This doesn’t mean I’m gonna start eating more than iUsually do. Heck iAready eat a lot. Cause when iEat, iDo not hesitate. So I’m just gonna change my eating pattern. There. Now everyone’s happy. :D

*Caramel_Kisses*

Lunga Lunga

iCome up with the weirdest post titles... o_O

iMade spaghetti today. This might not be a big deal to you guys. But for a first timmer like me. It's an event to be celebrated. It turned out a little too peppery. Okay it was way too peppery. But asides from that, it was good.

AnyHoo.

So iHad this totally fuckable weekend planned out.

You see, my folks traveled yesterday and they wont be back till Sunday. Imagine all the possibilities. Eating out with a couple of my friends on Friday. Chilling with major hotties on Saturday. Some possible boogie'n going down. 

But alas, iFell sick.

 IFXCKING. FELL. SICK !!

Can you relate to the kinda frustration i'm experiencing here. Maybe i'm just being melodramatic. Yeah right. Thats a major understatement [get the irony?].

iDont understand my body anymore. I'm suffering from basic, IMMUNE SYSTEM GONE WRONG syndrome. It has gone completely balonkers on me. 

Maybe thats God's way of preventing the inevitable from happening. Oh well, tough luck.

Moving on.

You wouldn't believe the ASSWIPES iHave to deal with almost everyday on social networks.

Some idiot actually sent me this on Facebook, "U sure look like em asian gurls......is ur mum fwom asia? well let me spare u tha questions.... I will love nothing other than to know ya beitha.....looking forward to knowing more bout u....asian gurl...chin"

iMean wow. What the fxck is chin? Some people just amaze me. You're depriving a village somewhere of an idiot!!

AnyHOO

Since I've been rendered immobile. For now. Jade and Ms Tee came to hang with me. They can be so lovable at times. We had a splendid time dancing our asses off.

 iKnow what you're thinking, "iThought you said you were sick, how come you were dancing?" It was to keep my mind off it. Nothings ever stopped this bootie from shaking you know. And the girl's still got it. We should form a dance crew. We'd really wow your minds.

Makes us twice as awesome :))

Alright then. I'm off. 

*Caramel_Kisses*

Para Siempre

iWas gonna blog about something interesting but i'Changed my mind. I'm in a mood. A bad one. 

You see theres this guy Jade recently started liking. Lets call him Ryan.

You see Ryan is one of those exceptionally fine guys that look innocent but daring. He's what british

girls call, "double cool with a knob." He's also a stud.

Good news is that he's interested. Bad news, he's interested in me. Woohoo !! Oh right, crap.

So now Jades sad. And that makes me sad.

Then this other babe that happens to knows about it  walks up to Jade and asks her not to tell me he's interested cause it could cause a SPARK and there'd be problems between us. Like WTF!

Make someone happy, mind your business !!

Just cause you were too stupid to control your libido [long story] doesnt make me remotely like you. Ahh!! The nerve of this bitch. I'm pissed as hell.

Why do people talk about things they know nothing about ? It just baffles me.

Ok fine, iMight have joked bout liking him if jade isnt serious about it anymore. But thats just me. I'm hardly ever serious about anything. But thats what everybody likes about me. Its what makes me fun to be with.

Why are guys always the embodiment of girls reactions? Whats so special about them anyways. So they've got cocks. Pfff, big deal.

Science already invented a replacement Ladies and Gentlemen. Its called a  Dildo !!

What i'm iSaying? Scratch that.

Back to blogging.

It seems she does not trust me on this one. Or shes trying to. Either was she's not taking any chance with me. iCannot understand where all this is coming from. Heck ! I'm not even allowed to speak to him. She almost sounds like my mum.

So i've made my decision, iSay fuck it. i'm not gonna talk to him. You can call me an assKisser if you want. But she is Mi Mejor Amiga. She has always been with me. Through thick and thin. However it isn't always diamonds and roses.

*Btw, we've been besties for 12 years and counting. Oh yeah. Beat that !!

**I barely know Ryan so its quite easy to discard him aha XD.

***We saw Jerry today. He's lost weight. Looked spanking :D.

*Caramel_Kisses* 

The big 60

Today was Jade's mums grand 60th Birthday celebration.

This is a summary of my day. Pretty jobless. Cant say it wasn't fun though. Had a pretty good kick from driving my dad to his limits and he couldn't do nothing about it.

Oh yeah.

Ever been in a place where almost everybody knows just you amongst your friends. Its an excellent feeling.

*If you ever want something from your folks and you know they're gonna say no, ask when you're with your friends. They always want to seem cool.

**Its not fun to have a stalker. iAm so glad iDidn't wear my heels. Phew.

***Who knew there were soo many hotties in MKO. iShould arrange with my dad to move there. Konjilicious XD

*Caramel_Kisses*

Cockamamie...

Dear Readers,

I’m not going to apologize for being away for so long. Neither will iExplain why iWas gone. iHave a life. And it’s none of your business what iDo with it

However, my life has been unevenful so far.


Moving on.

As iLay in bed. Reading Alex Cross. iCould distinguishly hear the provoking sound of my clock go.

..TICK-TOCK. Tick-tock.

Tickory, dickory, cock. XD

Back to blogging. 

How far would you go to please someone you care about. 

In the words of Evanescence, "Take care what you ask of me, cause iCan't say no."

iCant say thats my motto. But thats the way iLive my life. Its not that iDo it on purpose. iJust 

find it hard to say no to people. Especialy the excellent male specie.

My weakness.

Like Chimmy said, "As a girl, it's in my genes to want to hump every attractive male that looks in my direction..." 

Ah yes! The intimate joy you get whenever there's an open window. Lol. Lowkey !

Little stuffs like that gets my adrenaline flowing, blood boiling. Gets the demons in me going. 

But alas! Even if iDo not actually mouth the word no, iAlways manage to find escape routes without 

making them look stupid. 

Doesn't mean iDont have infrequent slip ups. Nobody's perfect. *_*

A guy just recently asked me if iWas a bad girl. The first thing that came to my mind was, "Umm ..Perv !"  

A saucy fatHead would probably have been like, "iCan be, when iWanna [with an exagerated wink]." Pfff. 

iMeeean what a bafoon. But being the kinda person iAm. My answer was, "lets just 

say i'm sensible." If he's not satisfied with that he'll just have to go and wank ! Cause of his 

Fetish !

Ok i'm weird. iKnow. But thats such a strong word for someone like me. Lets just say i'm tryna be 

obsessively opposed to the typical. I'm just cool like that. 

Thats not actually what iThought though. Just sounded alot better to me. :D

Anyways it was all a misunderstanding. But thats not important.

An update on my last um ..Victim of infatuation. iAssure you. Its over. Right now i'm just facinated by 

him. Meaning i'm no longer interested in that way again. And, of course, He doesn't give a damn. 

Boys.Why are they always such dumbasses ? Pfff.

Doesn't mean it can't come back though. :-D 

Thing is, i've got this maddening intuition that when iSee him i'm gonna be disappointed. And thats he's 

alot less than the character iMoulded in my mind. That would be bad. That would be really bad.

In my mind he's just so tasty and unbelievably dishy. And he just happens to banter about alot of 

unforgivable things.

*Btw iJust invented a word. I'm just so awesome. In the dictionary, next to the word Awesome, there's a 

picture of the word, "GOD" and the person holding that picture up is me XD

Anyways the word is called Infammiable. It means senseless strong feeling. If you do not like the word you can SUCK MY COCK !! 

Buona notte Dudes and Duddettes.