Let me tell you who iAm. Let's delve into me a little bit.
iHave never been afraid of getting hurt by feelings before. iHave always ignored consequences cause iCraved to feel... To be in love... To be loved.
iHave always known the worst scenarios,and iWas always ready for them... But with you, its a whole different ball game.
The way you stare at me is so unbelievable. Like you could see something special iWasn't seeing.
And how you can't do without holding me.
The way you light up whenever you see me... It's one of the best things ever.
It's like when you're holding me, iNever want you to let go.
Like cuddling and making out wasn't enough... It's not sex, it's something more, something completely different, something out of the ordinary.
If there's something deeper than sex then that's it.
It's like my mind's yearning for us to be one... For our minds and hearts to form one being. It's a connection iNever knew existed.
The moment you touch me, just a gentle touch, doesn't have to be sexual... iAlways get this ache in my chest.
At first iThought iImagined it, but it was there alright. And then iThought it was a medical condition, but it kept happening. Everytime you touched a part a part of me.
It's nothing iHave ever felt or heard of before.
iAm not trying to be poetic or some romantic shit like that... This is real. And iDon't think you realise just how real this is for me.
For the first time in my life, iAm actually afraid to feel. Afraid to think of what might become.
My mind won't let me discover how much iReally feel about you.
iAm unprepared for this.
You might have to power to actually break and shatter me for good.
And for the first time... iAm afraid to risk it.
iFound this (whatever it is) on my phone and decided to post it afterall. It's funny how this came back to bite me in the ass. Boy am iGlad iDidn't risk it. I'm not saying iDidn't feel anything, but iWas holding back alotta emotions mostly. And that is probably the only reason iCan still look at him.
*Caramel Kisses*
