No Deseado :(

Dear Readers,

iHave tried and tried not to bore you with my sad heart affairs, but i'm afraid this is an emergency. You see, i've been feeling some heart burns lately called jealousy. How come you ask? Well it’s all thanks to Hendrixx.

Yeah... iKnow I’m supposed to be over him. But iDidn't even like him before, so what went wrong? The part that shocked me the most is the jealousy part. Cause iHardly get jealous. ..Or maybe it’s just envy. Either way it infuriates me.

So I’ve been obsessing over him and Kay’s not cool with that. Whats happened to me?

Lately my mind has gone hay-wire. I've been thinking of the possibilities. iMean iEven imagine a lot of erotic things going down between us. And I’m really imaginative so you can imagine how erotic they are.

If only I’d just say yes and get it over with. Well, FXCK ILOOK LIKE? My libido might be on the loose presently but I’m not that stupid.

iWish iCould write a poem about how iFeel. Sadly, I’m not even sure how iFeel. Okay, the truth is iUnbelievably suck at rhyming XD

So my question is, "Is it possible that iLike this young fellow? Is it okay for me to say iLike him now?"

But alas. even if the answer was yes, iMusn't let him know he makes me feel this way. For if he does he'll be at an advantage.

It's not that I give a damn what he thinks. For if he knows, it doesn’t change a thing. It hardly matters, at this point, for he doesn't give a damn. ):

Okay, iCan't really say he doesn't care since he doesn't know about how iFeel. But then again he's a neglecter and a bloody assHole. You won't believe the effontry iEndure everytime.

How did iFall for him anyways? Why do iAlways fall for the gorgeous assHoles? How is it possible that just seeing his face could cause my heart to skip a beat? And reading his messages causes my libido to do the Rumba?

If he asks me, I’d tell him the truth; just cause iMade a stupid promise. However, if he doesn’t, well too bad, cause there isn’t a chance iHave to spare.

This is one of the reasons why iHate being a girl. We are such sad creatures when we really like someone and the feeling isn’t mutual.

iThink iMight have to change my ways. No more liking boys just for fun.

AnyHOO

This just complicates things for me. Cause I’m pretty sure Mss Tee still likes him even if she claims she’s giving up. Don’t ask me how iKnow… iJust know.

And then there’s the fact that he’s never gonna like me back. Sigh. Let’s just say my life pretty much sucks at the moment.

My first decision was to go M.I.A for about a week. But then iThought, "Hey, wait a minute... iLike him not love him. Pfff" Love…  Bleh! How bothersome. Been there... Not quite ready for another round.

So now my decision is to stay away from him till I’m over it. Does that make any sense? iThink it does. Right. I’d probably be over it by Friday, then I’d be happy again :D.

So Dear Hendrixx… I’m sorry if you miss me. And iDo hope you miss me. Yeah right *rme*.  This is Kay saying goodbye till whenever.

Ah yes!

A sad ending and a possible new beginning …Or else I’m Doomed!

*Caramel kisses*